I can't describe what Im feeling, other than a change

Today i finished my book Irresistible Revolution (tear). But I didn't know that when I started to read this book, it was going to change me the way that I think it has. Shane puts things that seem so clear out there that you never hear of in the church. Its really makes me happy to see that Shane and a bunch of people that he knows are out there doing this, it just blows my mind away really. After reading this book I can tell that God is here in our world not in some distant place, He is here and with us. And I want to be doing everything I can for Gods kingdom.

In the last chapter Shane was talking about how we as Christians are told we are suppose to be, like candles that light up the darkness, then he says this,"Candles can be snuffed out be the slightest wind or by the smallest child on their birthday. But it's way harder to put out a fire. We are to be fire". And when I read this I thought to myself how can I be a fire in my community. Ya im going to a Christian school and all that crap but that means nothing cause all the crap that happens at a normall college/town happens here too. So i want to get out there and start making a mark on the community for God, so that when Im a fire I can start to light others on fire. Thats my goal.

Shane talks a lot about the poor and how much we seperate ourselves from them, and that really hurt me too. I really just want to go hang out with the poor and homeless and show that I love them.

Its crazy to think of what just one book can do to change your life, and not Shanes book but the Bible.

Sorry i did a lot of just rambbling I like to do that and its my blog ha!

God is good

last night started as a hard, but God is good and the day keeps going. So i started out today by going to a church, the name is Risen King Commnuity Church. It was really good actually and i was supprised at how laid back the worrship was and it felt really good. the pastor was a little to not focused at times, but i still really got something out of the service.

And what is really good is that they have a church within a church like my one back at home is starting. and i guess that it seems to be doing really good so that gives me hope for my church back home for sure.

but i was reading in my book today by shane claiborne and the last thing that i read really for some reason felt really good. i have never really been around a lot of ethnic groups but i have been around the poor and homeless and i think sometimes we (as ppl in the world) look down on them all the time, and i know its bad and all but still we do it, but shane says this, "We are made of the same dust. We cry the same tears. No one is beyond redemption. And we are free to imagine a revolution that sets both the oppressed and the oppressors free".

and that just really hit home that we are all made from the same dust, like i never really looked at it that way before, that we all came from the same place i guess ya i always really knew that and all but for some reason it hit home. and i keep saying that i want to go and do these things like go out and help more, but i keep on putting up barriors for myself like reasons that i can justify why im not doing it. i guess that i just need a LOT more work done, i dont think ill ever stop growing.

so ya it was a good day in all, its funny how God really talks to people, cause for some resaon i always feel like i cant hear what He is saying, but i think i just dont know if its just cause im scared to hear what he is going to tell me. i guess thats like a little prayer for myself.

man that was a lot of writing im going to go read some more of my book peace out

today was a good day to be here

the first part of the day started early,

with my old testement class which was somewhat ok, were just movin very fast through it for sure. then i sadly skipped out on chapel today cause i went to go and get my physical. luckily someone drove me there or it would have been a long walk, but i sat there for 2 hours in the waiting room just WAITING doing nothing. finally they called me to the back and took 10 mins to ask me if i was healthy, i told them yes, turned around out of the doors and left. it was a waste of mine and my frineds day man, that part of the day sucked for sure.

But the rest of the day got a lot better,

first i actually saw clouds in the sky so i knew running in the afternoon would be great and windy and not as hot as death. then when i was done running later in the night we started a campfire around 9 oclock. it was just out the back of our room on a patio and it started out slow, pretty much just the "Original 5" (thats what i call us in my head) but then it started to get moving and a lot of ppl ended up there prolly a good 25 for a while.

i have been reading a lot about community in the irrisitiable revolution, and i think that were actrually gettin that here in just the week of simpson. we are all getting so close to each other it just feels so good to be here, i wouldnt trade anything for these moments in the world. i was really scared that i wouldnt get any frineds and be a loner, not that i dont like my alone time, but i have really grown with ppl and its awsome.

its amazing to see what God will really do if you let him take your life, not that im perfect but i feel like im gettin closer to God than i have been for a while. which is a good thing,

i still have a long journey ahead of me, but so far, the start has been revealing to me for sure.

i miss the people back home and its hard to live without them, but its good to "grow up" as much as i can.

my verse for the day is matthew 1:21 "becasue He will save his people from their sins" its alwasy good to know that God is near and here to be ready to catch me for sure. im glad that im on His side, and that He is on mine!

What my title is

Namaste

what the heck is that, well let me tell ya. I have been reading this great new book The Irresistible Revolution by Shane Claiborne(who has chilled with mother theresa), and is just making my whole life change, well as long as i start to act how im fealing right now. But back to the word, Shane was in Calcutta at a place where a bunch of lepers were, and they would wisper this mystical word namaste to him. The word meant, I honor the Holy one who lives in you. It just blows my mind away that Shane is out there being a Christian like i want to be. What a great guy, so i stole the word from him, but now its my word.